The last month didn’t get any easier. The weather was still cold, gray, and often rainy. Sometimes, the sun poked through the clouds, but it didn’t life my spirits. I spent most of the month working and playing video games. We did spend a couple of days visiting Szczecin (where the pictures in this post are from), a small Polish town close to the border. We also happened upon a cool exhibit of super old Mercedes-Benz while we were there. Finally, I bought a bike, and this got me out a little bit, which was very good!
I bought the bike from a great little second-hand bike shop in Berlin called Bikeopia. They were very attentive, honest, helpful, and they gave me a big discount, even on top of the sale they were having. The sale was set up for Women’s Day in the first week of March. Their motivation for the sale was that women still make less than men on average in Germany, so this was their way of bringing awareness to the issue and recognizing women. In fact, Women’s Day was also big topic around the office this year. Tensions had been running high for a while, and this seemed to be a catalyst for a culture clash. The same arguments we’ve probably all heard were thrown around time and time again. Mostly, there were some arguments between the men about how best to recognize the women in their lives, and of course, some men, that felt excluded by not having a “men’s day” for themselves.
I wasn’t shy about my feelings on the topic:
I feel the point of Women’s Day is to raise awareness of the inequality women still face around the world, e.g. lower wages, lack of career choices or even being barred from some professions, experiencing gatekeeping in activities outside of work, lack of control over their own bodies, shame in and/or objectification of their bodies, lack of female role models in high ranking positions, etc., and especially, being silenced when speaking out on such issues. Of course, everyone likes tokens of appreciation in general, but I think on this day, women typically don’t really want to be given those things, so much as they simply want these issues to be acknowledged. In the long (or preferably short) term, they want to be treated as equals by default– neither as less-than, nor as somehow on a pedestal– so that we no longer have to bring these issues up. At least as a woman, that’s what I want.
For me, it feels strange to still be having these conversations. Of course, I’ve faced plenty of sexism in the past, but because I’ve lived in pretty liberal places in the past, it was always easy to find a bastion of normal people to hang out with. When I interact with colleagues, I feel that their gender rarely comes into consideration for me in regards to how I behave with them. But since starting to work here in Germany, I have had to adjust my tone a lot, depending on who I’m talking to. Actually, I’m not sure if it has to do with gender, the STEM field, or my particular situation. All I know for sure, is that it is exhausting.
This month looks more normal (my husband covered the groceries this month, which is why they aren’t included below). April is gonna be bad though, since we’re headed back to the US to visit family.
- 1166 – rent
- 150 – utilities (including final costs from Italy, wtf!)
- 220 – bike
- 150 – dining out
- 25 – internet
- 25 – phone
- 40 – misc
- 32 – electricity
- 60 – entertainment
- Total: 1868